The Bamblings Of Bambi

I can't go home. I can't. It'll never be the same again. For the first time in about five years my grandmother will not be staying with us. I'll have Kit for a day or two but I'm used to Kit not being there when I need him but for the first time in my lifetime, Jon won't be there either and that I just can't cope with. I won't even have a lover there to hold me, kiss me and keep me company, telling me everything will be alright... I'll be so completely alone...

Don't make me go back there. Not this year...